The next gut-punching, compulsively readable Kate McLaughlin novel, about a girl finding strength in not being alone.

When eighteen-year-old Dylan wakes up, she’s in an apartment she doesn’t recognize. The other people there seem to know her, but she doesn’t know them – not even the pretty, chiseled boy who tells her his name is Connor. A voice inside her head keeps saying that everything is okay, but Dylan can’t help but freak out. Especially when she borrows Connor’s phone to call home and realizes she’s been missing for three days.

Dylan has lost time before, but never like this.

Soon after, Dylan is diagnosed with Dissociative Identity Disorder, and must grapple not only with the many people currently crammed inside her head, but that a secret from her past so terrible she’s blocked it out has put them there. Her only distraction is a budding new relationship with Connor. But as she gets closer to finding out the truth, Dylan wonders: will it heal her or fracture her further? 

This book was absolutely riveting – I’m talking cranked up to an eleven. When I had to put it down for real life stuff, I couldn’t wait to get back to the story.

Dylan is experiencing puzzling and disturbing events – she wakes up in an apartment she doesn’t recognize, runs into people who seem to know her but call her by a different name, finds drawings in her sketch book she didn’t create, and she loses time. But she’s never lost three days before. Being diagnosed with Dissociative Identity Disorder is a shock, but she’s relieved to finally have a diagnosis and an explanation for what’s been happening. Now she can get the help she needs to cope with it.

She has an incredible support system with her family, best friend, and Connor. He’s such a treasure, and I adored him. Dylan expected him to run once he knew about her disorder. He not only stayed, but researched DID on his own and was there every step of the way for her.

The alters are well-developed and feel like distinct people. Each has their purpose, and they’re very protective of Dylan in their own ways. Their journal entries allow the reader to get to know them, and it’s a clever technique. I don’t know much about DID, but from what I’ve read the author handled it respectfully and clearly did her research. She also gives resources at the end of the novel for anyone wanting to learn more about it.

This novel is very dark at times, and trigger warnings are listed so take note before reading. It’s an absolutely compelling and moving read that shines a light on mental health and identity.

I received a complimentary copy of this book from the publisher through NetGalley.  Opinions expressed in this review are completely my own.